Greetings Magical Light Being

My name is Bonni Sue and my journey is about transformation, connection, and healing—both for myself and for others. I’m not just a guide or a space holder; I’m someone who’s been to the darkest places and found a way to the light. I’m here to help others do the same.

My Healing Journey

From Western Medicine to Becoming a Medicine Woman

My journey into healing began in 1998 when I first entered the world of Western medicine. Immersed in healthcare, I trusted doctors and prepared for nursing school. However, everything changed in 2010 after a traumatic dog attack at an animal shelter. The physical and emotional toll of that event led me to rely heavily on prescription medications, which eventually spiraled into a serious drug habit.

By 2012, I realized I needed a different path. I walked away from Western medicine and began exploring alternative ways to heal. I turned to cannabis and psilocybin, using them with intention to address the challenges I faced.

In 2013, I discovered yoga, offering a new perspective on self-care and healing. That same year, I began a nomadic journey, traveling across 44 states with my two hound dogs. Living on the road for eight years, on and off, was transformative. It provided me with a deep sense of freedom and self-discovery, along with significant growth and exploration. During this time, I solidified my belief in the healing power of music, which had helped me break through past suicide attempts. I followed some of my favorite bands across the country, recharging my soul and expressing gratitude for their role in my recovery during the darkest times of my life.

In 2015, I moved to a cannabis farm in Northern California, which allowed me to reconnect with nature and integrate my learnings in meaningful ways. This experience was pivotal in shaping my approach to health and healing.

My journey continued with a trip to India in 2016, where I completed 200 hours of yoga teacher training. That same year, I moved to Colorado to work in the cannabis industry and became certified in Reiki 1. In 2017, my healing path took me to Thailand, where I studied Thai massage and foot reflexology. I also became certified in teaching yoga and meditation to children and teens, touring the country to teach yoga in parking lots before concerts.

Between 2018 and 2020, my focus shifted to my physical health. I began experiencing unusual symptoms that led to a partial hysterectomy at the young age of 37, just nine months after the symptoms first appeared, leaving me bedridden. The sudden shift in my world pulled me deeper into alcoholism.

In 2021, I deepened my practice by introducing Sacred Medicines like DMT, Ayahuasca, Kambô, Rapé, Sananga, and Cacao, expanding my understanding of consciousness and realizing the need for drastic changes in my life. That same year, I completed a 300-hour yoga teacher training with the school in India. By 2022, I became a Certified Kambô practitioner with the International Association of Kambô Practitioners and received my Kundalini Reiki practitioner attunement. On February 2, 2022, I quit drinking alcohol for good.

In 2023, I achieved Reiki Master/Teacher status and completed Yin Yoga Teacher Training, deepening my understanding of the body's energy meridian system and the emotions we hold onto.

By 2024, I fully embodied my authentic self and embraced my role as a Medicine Woman. I completed training as a Women’s Circle Facilitator and earned certification in Sound Therapy, bringing my love and belief in healing music full circle into my practice. I also wrote my first year-long Goddess embodiment and empowerment program. These experiences have allowed me to fully embrace my role and guide others on their healing journeys.

My journey from Western medicine to becoming a Medicine Woman has been one of profound transformation. Each step, from my travels to my diverse training, has shaped my ability to support and empower others in their healing paths.

My Journey with Sacred Medicines

I had been dealing with lingering physical pain from a past accident, hormonal imbalances from a partial hysterectomy, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, panic attacks, PTSD, skin issues, thinning nails, and breaking hair. I was overwhelmed, taking everything personally, and neglecting the self-care and love I desperately needed. The turning point came when I realized I had no other options. Something drastic had to happen for me to make the changes I needed. I was drinking excessively and knew I needed to stop.

I was at rock bottom—everything I owned was either in the back of my truck or stuffed into trash bags in my mom's backyard. I thought I had already pulled myself out of rock bottom once before, but this time, I fell even further, farther away from the light. It was the beginning of May, and my boyfriend had just broken up with me. I found myself crying on the phone to my cousin, feeling utterly lost. Two days later, I drove two hours to see her, desperate for deep healing. She had arranged for us to meet with a shaman outside of Area 51, and that’s where my two-day journey with Sacred Medicines began.

On the first night, I smoked DMT for the first time. The experience lasted only 17 minutes, but it immediately washed away the anxiety that had been consuming me. I felt as if I was a baby being gently rocked to sleep, reassured and comforted. It was as though the universe was softly bopping me on the nose, telling me that everything was going to be exactly as it should be. The weight of my worries lifted, and I walked away from that journey with a profound sense of safety and peace, knowing that I could face whatever challenges life threw my way.

The next day, we prepared for our Ayahuasca journey. At sunset, we opened the ceremony space and lit the fire. We drank our cups of Mother Ayahuasca under the vast desert sky, and that night, Mother Jaguar appeared to me in the stars. She watched over me, her eyes scanning back and forth, and I felt deeply protected. Her presence was a powerful reminder that I was not alone, that my guides were with me every step of the way. This was just a part of my journey—one I needed to experience to become the person I was meant to be.

After these ceremonies, my life began to shift. My eating habits changed; I could no longer tolerate processed foods or animal products. The desire to drink alcohol dissipated, and although I relapsed briefly, I eventually quit for good. DMT and Ayahuasca had given me a renewed sense of purpose, a feeling that I was safe and could overcome anything.

The Ayahuasca journey was the beginning, but it was Kambo that truly transformed me. A few days after my Ayahuasca experience, my shaman suggested I contact a powerful medicine woman in Las Vegas to explore Fire Medicines. A few weeks later, I found myself working with Kambo. I didn’t know much about the medicine at the time, but I knew I had a lot of underlying traumas and emotional blockages that were holding me back. My first few ceremonies with Kambo were life-changing. The second session, in particular, marked a turning point—I knew this was the path for me.

Kambo helped me find myself. Physically, I began to notice changes. My chronic pain lessened, the bloating subsided, and I eventually released 60 pounds, which I’ve managed to keep off. My anxiety diminished, and the incessant chatter in my mind quieted. For the first time in a long time, I felt clear-headed, capable of making things happen because I could finally hear what I was meant to do.

Over time, my intentions with Kambo evolved. Initially, I worked with the medicine to release what no longer served me, but as I continued, my focus shifted to igniting my inner fire and living authentically, free from the opinions of others. The emotional purges were intense—there were times I would cry for two hours straight on my way to the ceremony, only to experience a profound release during the session.

Before starting my Kambo training, I quit drinking and dove headfirst into Kambo, working with the medicine ten times in fourteen days—once even three times in three hours. I wasn’t happy with the person I had become; I didn’t feel like my true self. But Kambo changed that.

What drew me to Kambo was not just its incredible healing power but also its legality and non-psychoactive nature. Unlike the other medicines I had worked with, Kambo is legal worldwide, allowing me to practice in a safe and supportive environment. The fact that it isn’t psychoactive means I can stay present during the process, fully engaged in my healing without the need for an out-of-body experience. Kambo has given me the tools to transform my life, and for that, I am eternally grateful.

My journey as a Shadow Worker

My journey as a Shadow Worker began long before I realized it, but it took a profound life-altering experience to illuminate the path I was meant to tread. Instead of shying away from darkness, I've always found solace and understanding within its depths. From a young age, I recognized that darkness holds invaluable wisdom and transformative potential, offering opportunities for profound healing and growth.

As a shadow worker over the years, I have experienced a sense of conflict or tension when trying to fit into the lightworker community or other spiritual circles. Shadow work and light work represent distinct approaches to healing and spiritual growth. Shadow work involves shining a light on uncomfortable truths, unresolved emotions, and suppressed aspects of the self, while lightworkers focus on promoting positivity and light.

Even though shadow workers and lightworkers may have different primary focuses and intentions, they often share a common toolbox of modalities and techniques aimed at supporting individuals on their journey of self-discovery, healing, and empowerment.

Since shadow workers may bring awareness to darker or taboo subjects that others may prefer to avoid, this can make some individuals uncomfortable or resistant to engaging with shadow work. This fundamental difference in focus and approach can create a sense of dissonance or misunderstanding between shadow and light workers.

Understanding this difference in practice is important. The work that I do involves confronting the darker, hidden aspects of the self, which can be intimidating for those who are not ready or willing to explore their own shadows. Fear of the unknown can lead some individuals to project their discomfort onto shadow workers, labeling them as "bad" or "dangerous." When individuals feel challenged or triggered by the shadow work process, they may react defensively as a way to protect themselves from feeling vulnerable or exposed.

Embracing shadow work requires courage, vulnerability, and a willingness to confront one's own darkness. It is a path of complete transformation and evolution that may not resonate with everyone. While some individuals may be drawn to the light and positivity of light work, others may feel called to explore the depths of their psyche and embrace the shadow as an integral part of their spiritual journey.

My Spiritual Commitment

My heart overflows with gratitude for the privilege of living out my dreams and spreading transformative self-healing wherever my journey takes me. I have signed my spiritual contract to serve individuals drawn to explore the depths of their psyche, unravel the layers of their subconscious mind, and embrace their highest potential.

This sacred contract encompasses not only shadow work but also the elevation of consciousness, the awakening of divine feminine energy, and the integration of mind, body, and spirit. Those who are unafraid to confront their darkness, seek authenticity, and strive for wholeness are my people—individuals on a path of deep meaning and healing, ready to embark on the courageous journey of self-discovery and transformation.

I am here to hold space with compassion and a nonjudgmental approach, offering guidance and support as you navigate your inner terrain, uncover your light, and emerge stronger, wiser, and more aligned with your true self.

With unwavering commitment, I pledge to remain a perpetual student of life, ceaselessly learning, growing, and healing, in service to myself and others on this sacred path.

I look forward to holding space for you.

xoxo
Bonni Sue